I am sooo ready for my little girl yet I'm feeling so far away. 63 days of an LID count down doesn't sound like much but when you're waiting for a life change, it's an eternity. I try really hard to stay positive and focus on now and not on what I can't change. I feel like I'm living in a fantasy of having my little girl and this has become my life. It doesn't even seem real anymore. It doesn't even seem like it will happen. I know everyone says that it will and to stay positive. You'll soon forget the long agonizing wait once she is here. I've been waiting 412 days and there is no end in sight. I get a little bit of encouragement and then my hopes get smashed once again. I'm living life on hold and I hate this. I need some good news on the referral front for a change.