I'm sitting here, the house is quiet and I have the tree lights on and it's spinning around. I watch the lights flicker and watch as each special ornament comes into view thinking about each of them. All the presents have arrived and are wrapped and under the tree, or hidden somewhere until that magical morning. It is so beautiful and I love just being here with it and my thoughts of Chani running down the steps full of surprise and wonder. I so wish that she would have been here this year. It hardly seems real anymore that it will happen. I'm doing the best that I can with the wait but it's hard. I suppose it's like anything else, when the timing is right, it will happen. I just want that time to be now!